“My first experience with Voodoo,” you tell me.
Cotton poly blend. The travel-size sewing kit needle with a narrow eye. There is no
Restorative—I tell you she’ll be good (as new)—once she knows who to thank.
I like the way she looks on top of the piano, a blank silhouette-shape next to the tea-lights
and low-calorie snack wrappers. I sometimes leave my desk on purpose, walk away and
leave her limp, cast-off, cast in usual. Needs mending.
An easy syllogism. Take one, take two. She ran with me to the edge of the water and I
spit it out again. The wet spot of sand was only dark for a moment. She pressed an ear to
my stomach and listened for the giardia intestinalis and the cryptosporidium. I asked her
what it meant for me. She pursed her lips and told me they mustn’t be swimming very
loudly today. Try again tomorrow.
I hear the dead wish they could decide what we dropped in the ground: blood or wine or
potato chip fragments, a left-shoulder toss of salt. Catch you in the eye. Better to leave
behind for them than for gods or the devil.
Cut even slices with a ball of yarn. Sprinkle sugar. Make your best offer.
Sometimes the un-doll slips up. She invites me over to get drunk/text old
boyfriends/watch porn/become reacquainted with God. She doesn’t know how to tell me
not to be standing in this place in the moment I hadn’t anticipated doing so.
Place it in her meridian. A butterfly would be better, keep track of her muscular
hypertonicity. If there are drops, let the dirt eat them whole and maybe the dead will
forgive you (if they’re watching carefully, if their tongues are spread long, waiting).
Mirrors are best when no one moves. If nothing alters you deny the periphery. It is too
easy to lie on a table and catch the reflection of his tray of tools. She told me she had a
strange pain, I asked if I could have one: too.
Keep the doll on the mantle, stick the needle in consecrated ground. Raise at a later
You say I am looking for sacr facere. Under “s” under “f.” Under my bed, in the
stuffing, in the old book of recipes my mother left me.
Great-grandmother’s secret remedy. No one makes it right anymore